I Pretend to Be Brainwashed to Survive

※ This work contains depictions of coercive and violent acts. I just wanted to live comfortably, doing whatever I wanted. I truly, desperately wanted that. Even when my family went bankrupt and I was sold off as a slave, and even when some crazy Marquis took my back and scrambled my brain. Not only that, I was willing to become a dog and lick someone's feet if it meant I could stretch my legs and live in peace for just a little bit longer. That's why I only moved in directions that would benefit me, even slightly... “Now, you obey only me. Don't worry about anything else.” “I'm sorry, I'm so sorry... Please, never forgive me for pushing you into the abyss...” “Please, let me help you. I ...